Cashing a reality cheque

It seems as if 2007 has one last card to play. I have to leave my house by March as the building has been sold and will be gutted to build shops and flats.

I have to decide what I am going to do next in my life. I feel that I must review my path and quickly.

Jo gave me a Bonsai tree for Christmas. I think it is the most beautiful thing anyone has given me. If I take care of it, he, that is to say 'Aldebaran' my bonsai tree will outlive me. My life will be but a moment for him. So why worry?

I wish I felt more sure that I was going to make something of my life and die feeling that I had adventures, romance and left the world a bit better. But other times I think a quiet, humble life will be better.

But then, I am me and my life tends to take interesting turns and I seem to seek adventure so perhaps it will not be a dull life either way. That fills me with hope and joy.

My love to you all.

Ram