Are You Damned?
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I renewed my vows last night. Jo cut off a lock of my hair so I would remember the event.

Dissertation is coming along okay, but slowly, I seem to have gotten stuck in some academic mud and it takes a while to get up to speed again. I'm sure that after the Gathering I shall be back on track with NO distractions!

Speaking of the Gathering, I'm feeling pretty frothy but not as much as I thought I would at this point. I know it will be good, but I am also quite confident my character will die. I hope in some noble way, but I have a feeling it will be in a bush, knifed up by some evil drow kill squad for no reason or randomly put down while I wasn't paying attention and dragged through a void gate by something. Magnus did point out that this year WAS the Cataclysm and we must be prepared for our characters to die horribly. What I'm looking forward to (as always) hanging out with my mates in character and learning information and sharing it with as many people as I can.

Anyway, it will all be fun and games and at the very least I can get drunk and have a laugh with some mates in a field.

Then I suspect I won't see anyone until after the 15th of September when I hope to have a party or celebration of some kind. It will by Bailey's birthday that day also so we should all gather for that too.

Ram.

New rant up on Ramrage.

Ram.

#Once you're lost in Twilights blue
You don't find the way, the way finds you...#

You scored as Fox. You are the Fox. You are quite intelligent and use it to your advantage. You are a diplomatic person and use that to help your friends in times of crisis, not choosing sides. You are also very patient, waiting for what you want. Fox 92% Wolf 83% Deer 83% Crow 83% Dog 75% Dragon 75% Eagle 75% Ram 75% Salmon 58% Bull 50% Bear 50% Snake 33% Horse 33% Stag 33% Which animal totem best suits you? created with QuizFarm.com

The above is my animal totem. Nice to know if I ever went on a trippy spiritual journey my guide would be a fox.

Tonsilitis was cleared up by the help of antibiotics. I had the bacterial strain so was down for about a week. It was pretty bad not being able to swallow without flinching and my mouth smelling like a gutter. But Jo nursed me back to health.

I feel however, that I have fallen out of my life a bit. All this dissertation writing and working behind the bar mean I'm living in what I used to this were the peripheries of my social circle. In many ways I find this sad, but in another way, liberating. It is almost as if I have died and have been reborn.

This conveys how I am feeling about myself as well, I am letting go far more. Things fall from me like petals from a flower rather than me carrying a rock.

What I need to do is reconnect with the people that really mean something to me. This I shall be doing slowly, to give each and everyone the correct amount of attention. But remember that I love you all.

It will be Jo's and my 6th month anniversary this month :) Doesn't seem like six months but I certainly feel quite deeply connected to her. If you'll indulge me, when I'm not with her the world doesn't seem as bright. It's not 'grey' either it just doesn't seem to have the same 'colour' to it. I'm not sure what this means, but I know it means I like her. A lot.

See you all soon, or in dreams.

Ramalam.